If it was two weeks ago, I wouldn't post this since well... I was rejected by someone.
Yes, I'm a human being so naturally I was sulking like the teenage girl I was.
All that I was left with was this quote:
I didn't get it at first. I thought it was just another thing, I had to cry over.
Then, EPIPHANY.
I did a double check on my age, yep. Still 13. Ok, I'm good to go.
That's the thing see, my friends, my world, expect me to find someone or have someone at this age. At the start I thought I needed to follow that trend, be the person I'm supposed to be, this is where it gets all wrong. We are constantly having this fight between ourselves, our observed identity and our inner identity. Our observed selves follow these secret rules and regulations that society expect us to blindly tag along to. We rarely check these rules and regulations if it's fair and just. Mostly people expect this from our observed identity, the part of us that people think they know. Then our inner selves have different opinions, maybe we rather bend the rules or skip them all together. When I say rules I'm talking about stuff like wearing make-up, talking in one way, listening to the "right" music, etc.
So I come the across the quote again and I think "I get it now". I shouldn't mull over this like a deranged person that has reached rock bottom (don't worry I'll get there someday). Instead I should smile at this experience behind me. Even laugh at it. 20 years from now, when I actually find that someone (I hope I will, I'm not that hopeless), I'd probably forget about this.
Got rejected. Check that off my list. Now smile! :)
So all the ladies out there my age, don't get too hung up. We still have light years ahead of us. And right now, it's ok being "Forever Alone". No one really is "Forever Alone". You have your best friends, your family, your siblings who you love to pieces because a someone doesn't mean to have a boyfriend/girlfriend. Just right now, you don't need a that kind of a someone to ride on a f-ing steed with polished armour and hand you roses. So I'm here to tell you that it's perfectly normal. I thought I was weird too when I wasn't like my friends who wanted a someone, but I now figure it's normal. The most important thing right now is to show that inner identity of yours. You've this observed identity, a person which others stereotype people into. You wear dark clothes, conclusion, emo. You're too happy, weird perky kid. You're all about sports, jock. Well, people are more than just 2 dimensions you need to know them completely to love them. This term, love, is used so freely nowadays that we barely even know the true meaning of it anymore...
Ok, back on track from that.
Just have fun with yourself. And maybe you do want a someone, that's perfectly fine too. Just remember and think "Is this what people expect from my observed identity or is it something my inner identity wants?". The worst thing about the whole of this kind of a mess is liking someone because your friends teased you into it or you're expected to like that person.
Ni
Yes, I'm a human being so naturally I was sulking like the teenage girl I was.
All that I was left with was this quote:
I didn't get it at first. I thought it was just another thing, I had to cry over.
Then, EPIPHANY.
I did a double check on my age, yep. Still 13. Ok, I'm good to go.
That's the thing see, my friends, my world, expect me to find someone or have someone at this age. At the start I thought I needed to follow that trend, be the person I'm supposed to be, this is where it gets all wrong. We are constantly having this fight between ourselves, our observed identity and our inner identity. Our observed selves follow these secret rules and regulations that society expect us to blindly tag along to. We rarely check these rules and regulations if it's fair and just. Mostly people expect this from our observed identity, the part of us that people think they know. Then our inner selves have different opinions, maybe we rather bend the rules or skip them all together. When I say rules I'm talking about stuff like wearing make-up, talking in one way, listening to the "right" music, etc.
So I come the across the quote again and I think "I get it now". I shouldn't mull over this like a deranged person that has reached rock bottom (don't worry I'll get there someday). Instead I should smile at this experience behind me. Even laugh at it. 20 years from now, when I actually find that someone (I hope I will, I'm not that hopeless), I'd probably forget about this.
Got rejected. Check that off my list. Now smile! :)
So all the ladies out there my age, don't get too hung up. We still have light years ahead of us. And right now, it's ok being "Forever Alone". No one really is "Forever Alone". You have your best friends, your family, your siblings who you love to pieces because a someone doesn't mean to have a boyfriend/girlfriend. Just right now, you don't need a that kind of a someone to ride on a f-ing steed with polished armour and hand you roses. So I'm here to tell you that it's perfectly normal. I thought I was weird too when I wasn't like my friends who wanted a someone, but I now figure it's normal. The most important thing right now is to show that inner identity of yours. You've this observed identity, a person which others stereotype people into. You wear dark clothes, conclusion, emo. You're too happy, weird perky kid. You're all about sports, jock. Well, people are more than just 2 dimensions you need to know them completely to love them. This term, love, is used so freely nowadays that we barely even know the true meaning of it anymore...
Ok, back on track from that.
Just have fun with yourself. And maybe you do want a someone, that's perfectly fine too. Just remember and think "Is this what people expect from my observed identity or is it something my inner identity wants?". The worst thing about the whole of this kind of a mess is liking someone because your friends teased you into it or you're expected to like that person.
Ni
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